How I Became Interested in Discovering My True Self

There was a time when I was younger and might I say more into the adventure of taking everything to extreme. Then I almost lost my life and should I say my soul in the kind of challenges that change you into something you fear admitting while being a family sustaining responsible adult.

You would say I was wild … but then what kid isn’t. The truth is I was not exactly rebellious but rather completely not into rules. I wanted more, a purpose, a challenge, a life worth living and most of all not to become my mother.

I must admit I’ve kind of nailed that part for 3 whole years when my fear of poverty and need for achieving something got me into the kind of career that gave me the best feeling ever.

I was on top of the world, nothing seemed impossible and for the first time in my life I felt like myself. The truth is I was creative and industrious and I “contaminated” the world around me with the same attitude.  The money came easy as they usually do, when you do something you love and I must admit I enjoyed the feeling of utter security and freedom from every day worry.

And then came the most important decision in my life:

The day  I chose to be more than myself and wanted to become a parent.

Pregnancy was a challenge I did not expect.  It was as difficult as it should when you are not ready to accept you have limits. Since I continued working as hard as before, it was no surprise that because of stress I almost lost my little one when I was six months pregnant.

That particular moment, as I've identified it over the years , was the moment  when something            “ literally” cracked inside me. The feeling of broken toy remained and lingered for the rest of the pregnancy and it was, as I also discovered over the years the base line for my depression.

You will wonder: What this has to do with the definition of True Self.

The answer is : Everything!

The moment you understand the road behind was a lesson is the moment when you first understand that nothing lasts forever with the exception of the TrueYou.

And today’s mantra:

“Have courage and be kind to the world.  But be kind to Yourself first and the world will recognize your courage”

Remember to be Just You
I am doing my best trying.

Anca